Linkin Park

Hello. This is about a lesson I should have learned a long time ago. For some reason, I keep reverting back to this mistake blindly. Have I learned this time? Have I hurt myself or others enough?

How I get myself into this mess I don't know. It seems that everytime I feel that things are "stable" and that I'm doing fine, I get caught in something that leads to great pain. I've made this same mistake many times, but I fail to learn. Each time it happens I say that I won't allow it to occur again. But once again, it has happened--and this time it almost cuts deeper. I don't quite know how I need to analyze this situation. I'm the guilty one. I'm not everything that people perceive me to be. I'm not innocent. I'm seen as being a weak, naive, and gullible person--but I'm not. I realize that I'm young, but I'm not as foolish as some think. Many feel that I don't think about the entire scope of certain situations (which I give those individuals credit because there are times when I don't), but I try to carefully examine things. Sometimes to an extreme degree... I just feel terrible. I'm not a friend that someone needs. I only complicate lives. I feel that I just need to sever ties with people and be to myself, because I only end up being a problem--it happens everytime. I truly regret the things I've done. Being mistaken, I carry this heavy burden called "Guilt." Just when I think I'm doing something that won't cause any harm, everthing falls apart. There are feelings of guilt, fear, and turmoil. For this time, I hope I have learned my lesson. I feel that I can't deal with this again...